Exploring Myself: Culture and Gender

Everyday I ask myself who am I?

I’m always confuse how to identify

I couldn’t express my culture in the past

No one could relate in a public school cast

Now I know others with a similar story

Are we only our trauma or can we find glory

I will always stand with the minority

Asians are known for kpop, boba, and anime

I’m more than these stereotypes in every way

Expectations need to be shattered

To rebuild this mirror to reflect ourselves 

Because we matter

When I was born I lost the fifty-fifty

A mirror reflects me and I feel shitty

I shouldn’t care what others think

But I still let the anxiety sink

I hide this side of me from brother and mum

Forced to go home and I go numb

Boy clothes make me feel messy

Skirts, dresses, and makeup let me be pretty

If I can’t physically change like a chameleon

Should that affect how I feel on the inside then?

Now I’m unsure how to express myself

Identity is navigating through a maze without a map

I’m always tired of feeling like crap

Can’t let fear control me anymore

I want to be true to my core

Maybe my choices will be wrong

Confusion stays with me each new dawn

Can’t sleep sometimes and I yawn

All I know is I won’t choose to regret

The future’s a volleyball to be set

And I have the choice to choose who I am